<3

moved

2010-02-12T11:59:00.002+08:00

http://www.bananaberrylove.tumblr.com/

February,

2010-02-07T02:40:00.000+08:00

its the beginning of february alrdy. i have survived. great.

Peace.

2010-02-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

Realisation.

2010-01-10T00:20:00.001+08:00

helllo. so sry abt my attitude. i guess. i have out-grown from blogging. my life is not abt just blogging. i dont think by just blogging u can earn millions. so now. after i graduate from secondary schoool. and waiting for o lvls results which is like on monday. gosh. i cant wait how i did. whatever happens. i will just see wat i can do. :) so for those who are close w me. thy noe i am working in mcdonalds. (some of you ppl think tht mac is not a good paying job) but i don think so. mcdonalds has fuuuuuuuunnnnnnn ppl. LIKE ME! haha. if mac does not exist i don think fast food will be doing goood in business. lol. so mcd rocksss.busy w work. i misssss alot offf ppl. its been awhile since the last meeting. haha. but thy will always be in my heart. awwww. haah. i will find time to visit themm.
~ to alll my friends who taking O lvls this yr. start studying and don ever give up. jyjy:-D
xoxo;
shaz

My absence.

2009-12-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

busy w work, wont be blogging.

so goodbye.

Golden Village - The Twilight Marathon

2009-11-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

Golden Village - The Twilight Marathon

The aftermath of taking exams.

2009-11-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

;feeling if have done enough? studied hard enough? burn the midnight like for every night? or answering the qns correctly? how will the result be? i dunno for you ppl but i am hving this thoughts. and when i want to have fun. i will start thinking abt it. IT SUCKS. when u think tht ur result wont be good. i want this thoughts to go away. it is sooo frustating, GO AWAYYY. can u come back another day. or dont ever ever come back. u make my confidence level drop. and i hate it. I used to be a positive person. NOW. i am just think all the negitive answers. sigh.

y is the world round? if not, history wont repeat itself. but i cant change the fact. and truth. THE WORLD IS ACTUALLY ROUND. (shld be?)

I am looking for a new job. but it seems to be vv difficult. becos i dunno wat job i want to get.
-F&B
-Sales.
-admin.
seriously. i dunno. i just want to get a better paying job. for me to survive in this world.
ps. anybody got job to recommend me. pls. leave ur comment on the tag box. tyvm.

haha. hello. hazel. if u seeing this.
i miss hanging out w uu. :(
shama lama ding dong in the house. HAHHAHA.
i think u are busy w ur stuff. and ur list of number. 123. LOL.
hahaha. next week must book you. i wan go outt. and shop girl. :D:D:D:D

oh, one more shout out.
KRYSTAL!
want try other job ma? the JL i dont will call lor. u better find another job lah. at least can earn money ma.. :D
and get ur cravings. HOHO!

oh to all my friends.
i got ur contact alr. so no neeed to add me alr. tyvm.

XOXO;
shaz

My cravings. :D

2009-11-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hello. I am starting to fall in love w something. The worse thing ever is i cant take it out of my mind.HOHO.

Nvm. i'll share w u ppl. >>>>>>>>

I am sooo working hard. to get this. I CAN DO IT. :D:D

This like super chioo. ILYY. LOL.

xoxo;
shaz

one miserable day.

2009-11-05T21:15:00.001+08:00

hi ppl. i left w 2 more papers. MT and science. MCQ. so i decided to blog. i have been eating alot of macdonalds food. :( (oh shit, fast food are fattening) cos of the value lunch which cheaper than their usual price lah.hahaha! and they having some MONOPLY game going on. who has all the property will get smth. ya. or if u have marina bay or sentosa cove will get 50000. i have marina bay so ppl with sentosa wan share w me. we split the price. muaahhahaha.lol.OR IF U HAVE GEYLANG AND JOO CHIAT U CAN GET A IPOD TOUCH. so i have been AIMING to get the ipod touch. but i think the possiblity is vvv little. lol. so i have given up. lol. waste my time. and

to the miserable part is tht i ACCIDENTALLYY DELETED ALL MSN CONTACTS. damn it.

so friends pls add me back:
bananaberrjyuice@hotmail.com.
i really appreaciate. tyvm.

XOXO;
SHAz

Are they siblings? Celebrity Look-Alikes! - allkpop.com | breaking k-pop celebrity gossip and news!

2009-10-28T21:55:00.001+08:00

Are they siblings? Celebrity Look-Alikes! - allkpop.com | breaking k-pop celebrity gossip and news!

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You don,t stop learning.

2009-10-18T01:31:00.001+08:00

Wow, i learned alot for the past few days. Sometimes you feel you hate your mum and wants her to get of your life. But the fact cant be changed, she will be there forever to support you. in her bad times too. So for those ppl who don appreciate your mum now. Pls do so. If you dont, you will regret for life. So although she nags at you non-stop. Just bear it in mind. She telling you in experience.She wants the best for you, No mum in the world wants her child to be label as "no manners" or "useless". they want their child to be happy and successful. When i was younger, i didnt realise it but know god "knock " some sense to me tht i cant go like this till i die, watever. So the simplest way is to respect her and talk to her nicely. Thats all. She does not need you to treat her with gifts and stuffs. She just need your attention and affection. thats shld be good.

So to you know who,
think abt it,

HAHAHAH! I have officially graduated from Queensway sec sch,2009. It does not feel any difference, but i am near to the near beginning and meeting new friends, to know about myself more.Anyways, i am worried about my coming exams, Dang! O level?! I cant just stop thinking about it, If i can get good grades? Am i studying hard enough? this qns is always in my mind. I cant dissappoint me and mum. i have to prove everybody wrong. Norsyazana can do it. but i dunno, i dont think i have that much level confidence that i can do it. Oh my, so frustrating!! NO! I CAN DO IT. CAN DO IT.CAN DO IT.!!!! GOGOGO! haha.

xoxo.

shaz,

HAHAHA, Ip Jia ling, hyper at night, :D

Nobody is Perfect.

2009-10-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

My new me.

2009-09-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

XOXO,
Shaz

Nothing,

2009-09-08T11:28:00.001+08:00

Gone,

2009-09-03T15:20:00.001+08:00

Goodbye.

Feelings.

2009-08-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

MY Views

2009-08-09T00:23:00.001+08:00

so inmature and childish. when wiil u change, sometimes it is really digusting, ewww. god made us w a brain, so pleease use it wisely, don waste time in this world. do smth meaningful.

XOXO.
syaz.

:D

2009-08-02T00:22:00.001+08:00

How i feel.

2009-07-17T22:53:00.003+08:00

Its not fair.

Everything In 1.

2009-07-14T19:15:00.007+08:00

I wanted to blog. but i was busy, as usual. Oh well. anyways, i will upload my overdue pics. LOL.

SIAN. my picture pixelated. cos i was using the front camera. :(

HAHHAHAH, now look clearer! HAHHA.

Dang, didnt manage to take pic w tervin and Sia. Tervin left early. LOL.
HAHAHHA. oops. ah honng, sry. nv take picture w uu. LOL.

More pictures in Facebbok, Blogger upload is v "mafan!"
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Editted,
Hello readers.
I am starting to love Kpop. OMG! hahaha. i am so shock. maybe the industry is getting wider!?
today, had Chem remedial and SS qssp. Omg, it is so tiring. esp when u have to answer SBQ. SIAN. Oh, and I have to finish my coursework by the end of the month. SHitzzz.

Do my production plan.
Do my exams papers.
Finish up the artefact.
Revise subjects,
newt wed. go ss test. SL&NI
pls study on it.
Dont be lazy.
Stay healthy. :)

OK, i think thts the list i should follow for this whole month. JYJY. hope i can do it.

XOXO;
shaz

Motivational Notes.

2009-07-09T23:19:00.003+08:00

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victors cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit!

If there is a will theres a way.

XOXO;
shaz

For You to Fill in the Blanks.

2009-07-05T23:20:00.006+08:00

i feelin v weak. my legs are like jelly. my eyes are always watery.

I am back.didnt go anywhr.i was hibernating from the cold" anyone miss me? i noe Hazel misses me. :)
Random update.
i am very busy w school. everyday w remedials and qssp.i don it is a waste of time, i deserve this. i noe i didnt do well for mid yr, s0 i shall take this "punishment" w a lighted heart. Nways. i am recoving from sore throat,
H1N1 cases seems to be getting larger by day. We have to take temperature twice in a day. i feeling the stress. sigh. O level oral coming, mine is this wed,8 july. I CAN DO IT! (: aesthetics on 10july. ahahha, i can reunite w old friends. HOHO!

U decide.

2009-06-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

tsktsk.

Hazel!

2009-06-20T10:26:00.008+08:00

okay. i have some time before going to tution later, so i will blog now!
HAZEL

http://www.mylifemysaymyrules.blogspot.com/<

She so sweet laa. or the first time we knew it each other was like some choir. haha. she was like the smallest sec1 girl tht time, tht moment i didnt noe her name, but she vvvvv the cute. So when i always see her i will tell her" HAZEL U SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE." she will =.= . ahhaha, so hilarious la.. ppl who noe me. u shld noe. i am insane smth. hahahah.Now, i noe her better, bonded w more frequent. know her problems. i wan to help.be her gooood friend/sister. hahah.also got to noe her mum, Her mum is like the coolest mum laa. wish my mum is like tht. but i wont expect so much. Hazel's mum is young ma. hahaha. nways, she is a very adventurous girl. :)

Next.

ZHENHONG. aka Kevin.

http://www.xxkevzxx.blogspot.com/ <

hahaha, he has a blog. u ppl can visit himm. hahaa.. i help him advertise him. LOL.

Nways.
blogsoon.

shaz.

Internet.

2009-06-18T19:04:00.004+08:00

1- If there is internet connection in the parks of singapore, wont it be great? (:

Eg" you see a unique flower or creature and u want to research abt it or even share it Facebook?

You wont trouble yourself going to the library searching for books for info. With just a click u can find the answer or share it with friends.

2- While having picnic w ur family, u saw this HOTT guy and u want to share w ur BESTFRIEND on MSN. hehe.*gossips* *gossips*

3-You can enjoy mother nature while surfing the internet, Eg" you're online on MSN, and feeling the nature reserve.

The Moral of it, you can get connections. anywhere, anytime.(:

SO.

Live Life Online Anywhere with Singtel Broadband on Mobile Youth Plan!

Visit http://www.singtel.com/youth. For more details. ;)

XOXO;
shaz.

p/s: first time trying this competition.

Tag ReplieD

2009-06-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

Tag replies:

Nicole: hello!!!! HAHAHHAHA
Y.ling(::when i free, i will post all the pics we took laa. SOOON, i promise.
LOUIEcat:ok.
Rayvin: HELLO. will link u soon. hahaha.
P: Helllo. miss you luh. i quite busy w school. sian, everyday must come sch. zzz Nways. meet up soon.Tc.

Done(:

XXXOOX;
shaz

I am Lost.

2009-06-09T11:28:00.001+08:00

I am so in a freaking mess, i am confused, so many problems. i think i cant take the burden anymore. i am going to die soon. God help me.

Expired Pictures.

2009-06-01T23:20:00.003+08:00

Hello,
Finally got time to blog. hahaha. Had some problem w my bro. he and his friends, Make me pissed off toking abt him, No sense of responsibilty at all.
June Holidays is here, so as the GSS. whahahaa. lol. but i still have to come to sch. Coursework not done yet. DIE! Nways,
Today MT 'O' paper. i am speechless. i dunno how describe the papar. Some was easy and some part v difficult. OMG! i am so worried. All the best to me. If i have to re take. i have no choice but to take again. Hope i do quite well and no need to see the paper again. Sigh.

Some photos for u to seeee...

This was at Seoul garden. Celebrated my bdae thr,

the cake.

This was the cake. we trying to put on the plate but it got stuck. (?)

Mind my face, i was abt to scream cos the cake was going to fall of the plate. -.-

-----------------------------------------------

Have a break. Drink coffee. :D

Its 12.15am. tmr got sch.

gtg,

BS.

XOXO;

Shaz

P/s: Hven got the pics from zuzu yet, haha. ;)

Problems.

2009-05-30T18:37:00.003+08:00

Wth!! Are you insane or wat? "U wan to be friends w those ppl till eternity?"are u crazy?!! How abt ur family? ur mum? forget her and abandon her when u grow up? and join those ppl? tsktsk. she is the one who always been thr, when u dying and need help. ur financial help. she is the one who have been paying it for *ucking 16 years. and u just noe them for like wat. 2,3 years and u pledge this kind of thing. OMg, i feel so disappointed in you! i think tht blog post should not be posted. IT IS A DISGRACE! Esp those 2. u shld noe who am i refering. it is not worth it. really. Nvm, i will close one eye. when u at a mature age, u will noe tht kind of friends are waste of them mixing. really! They have no respect for u family and u wan to be friends w them? i tell u ok, if they are smart they will leave. Mark my words. if u don leave them, i dunno how is ur life gonna be. i pity you. i noe we have a broken family but u cant use this reason. Allah' make us not to blame our parents for our life is us who make it like this. so pls. DO NOT give kind of statement, and publish it like nobody business. Stop praising ur friends, start being thankful to ur mum.

kakak nana.

Memories.

2009-05-21T22:00:00.004+08:00

Hey guys!! Rmb of this people? Some are still w us. but some left. while browsing found this pictures. hahahhaa.

Nways, Exams are over. Post exams days. for two days. and O level MT is coming a near, less than a week minus weekends. Coursework also are due soon/. and no ideas yet. i am so confused. but the two days i try to destress. enjoy this today and the workhard? Today, had Queensway Idol. the contestants are not bad, as for beginners. but if they work hard, i think they have no problem going thru S'pore idol. haha. this is my opinion on them, the winner was Ziyu, she is a great singer maybe becos she goes to singing classes. but still i think she have the package la.. :D Junior is good tooo. only he dont take classes if not it i think he will be amazing. hahah. Ohoh, half thru the competiton, they had black out. wth. we were perspiring la.. thank god it wasnt so hot tht time. lol. After tht, went recess, chit chatted, lol. and hazel joined us. M and H actually watched "S" factor. lol. interesting show i guess? School end early but the 4E/5N had to stay back from remedial. ohmy, i am so nervous. after tht had dinner w H and her mum, went to eat laksa.yumyum. hahah. thanks for the treat,aunty, :D nowadays, i feel like i actually have friends. Aesthetics Night. coming. yeah. cant wait, hahaha.
till then, take care everybody. aim for A1 or A2 and NO NEED TO RETAKE AGAIN. :))))))))))

XOXO;
shaz

Boys Over Flowers.

2009-05-19T00:49:00.006+08:00

AWWWWW!! the show is so touching. i am addicted to it alr. cant wait to noe the nx and nx and next episode. Busy~ watching currently,
bloog soon.
:D

1.52am,
Sigh, comp lag. so i think i will just continue tmr. No school for me. Marking day, which marks the end of Mid year examinations. What A Relief. Hectic schedule starting soon. But i am prepared for it? Burn my ass off the nite! LOL. haha. exxagerating it too much. Went shopping today w jm. hahha. actually "window" shopping. So broke now. ><
I very good alr. i nv buy stuff lehh. i used it for food i think thts y i am bankrupt.
YL, i miss you laa. long time nv go out w u le. only tok to you at msn. so sian lor. nvm, after O level we meet again. TREAT me Kfc. hahahaha.u owe me present laahh sia..
(sry i noe abit weird)

Bye.
XOXO;
shaz

P/s: happy belated birthday zh. may u have a meaningful life ahead.

Thoughts.

2009-05-15T12:18:00.000+08:00

The Standard are high. Can i get through?

Pictures

2009-05-09T00:51:00.004+08:00

"enjoy evry taste"

"hey buddies. Follow ur dreams"

LOL!

"your future school?" ;)

"yoyoyoyo"

"ben and jerry trip"

"Ka waiii!!"

hazelnut+banana shake. anyone?

hahahhahaha!@

"will you marry me?" hahahaha!!

I am melting!

XOXO;

shaz

Greediness.

2009-05-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

I seriously don get it. Y ppl are so greedy? can they just be happey with wat they have?! not making other ppl feel miserable? i sometimes wonder? If u in their shoes. i think u will be v frustated, sigh, some ppl are just stubborn. in the end all not happy.

Hello everyone.
i am feeling v emotional now. i miss my friends.evrybody is busy w their stuff. i am busy toleranting my ass off w those ppl remark. sigh. problem after problem. ugh! Nways. exams start alr. so i wont be blogging so frequently. good for me i guess. oh i wan to feed back!!!! wtheeheckkk. SS and MATHS papers tgt. these subjects carry v weightage. and we had to cram every thing in one day. i don think alot of ppl going to do well. cos most of them had problems. hope O is better. don be like this.
take care everybody. the flu is still ard. but we do not need to take tmp everyday. save batt. hahha.ok
i end here.

XOXO;
shaz

P/s: _I_

Tired

2009-04-30T14:28:00.001+08:00

Wake Up. Its reality.

Reflection.

2009-04-19T18:09:00.003+08:00

Hi BRENDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! (:

"Sorry". is that word very to say it out? Apologizing is not a very hard thing to do. Its not like u have to do some "A" level qns tht need to take time to finish it. when u are wrong. u do not need a 5 ,ft long letter to apologise. is tht simple word, which u learn during ur childhood days. but i cant blame you if u are deprive from ur childhood days and did noe abt this word. although w/o "Sorry" i still can move on. Your choice.

WAH!

OMG!! I am in (L) with DBSK;TVXQ. they are so talented!! i want to learn korean language!! so tht i can understand them. after Os i sure take language classes to upgarde myself(: WAOhhh@@. NWAYS, after tuition went to meet hazel and her mum to have dinner tgt. lol. ahaha, amazing trip. her mum is v hip and cool. lol. she does watever teenagers doo. "salutes" (A) after tht went to PS to catch movie. 17 Again. ook la. the movie wasnt tht bad. it sumarises tht u have to lost smth to achieve smth, ur goals, dream or even future? like there is saying "NO pain NO gain".ok enough of my philosophy talk. take care everyone. due date for the competition is coming and i am clueless. should i give it a quit?

XOXO;
shaz

Somethings are beyond your control.

17 years older.

2009-04-15T19:25:00.002+08:00

HI. i am so happy today, its my birthday, to all my friends;thank you vvv much for the gifts and wishes. i really appreciate from the bottom of my heart. :D

nways, i have been v busy this days. so i decided to blog today cos its my day. so i shld be given a rest. alot of things happened during the last weekend. sigh, when i tok abt it, it make me sad. how can a man be running away from their responsibility, to me it is an coward acr. zzz. seriously, it is not worth it to run away, the thing will still hunt u done. "the world is round" i have a lot expired pictures. i will upload soon. i am too lazy to tht yet. Exams are ard the corner, Chiong arhhh!!!

Once again. Thanks.

XOXO;
shaz

My experience.

2009-03-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

hello,
Oh! its coming to march end , i feeling the heat alr, i just finish online hmwk, which is suppose to be done during the hols. lol. u shld noe yy?? busy with school work, hmwks laa. cca lah, and my COURSEWORK@@. stress. but this week i was busy with cca la, getiing design for the cca tee, so many changes, becos of the budget but i will try my best to make the tee more pleasant, (:
Nways, just now in the morning, i went to vjc for a canon exhibition, whr they held photograpy talks by popular photogapher. and stuff abt taking pictures all those sorts. interesting!also we can print A4 sizes pictures for free. any picture tt we like. and and and free cleaning for our DSLR, whohooo! lol. oh!. get to meet ppl who (L) photography. :)

psst: hahaha. finally i get to "bond" yuwen again after so long. lol. maybe u find me lame but its true. she went to join the photography to go to tht event, good effort girl, lol. and she can even forget to take her before she left, hilarious. ;)

nvm,

haha,
gd nite ppl.

XOXO;
shaz

Square one.

2009-03-20T23:29:00.003+08:00

I am so tired.

i duunno how should i express this. the teachers will tell us to do alot of revisions and do our hols assignment rite. but what i think , maybe its not true but i will just share it. hols is just a looong weekend tht helps to give u more day to relaxx. i am saying this by the positive side. maybe some agree but not all. this is to prepare you the hardship tht is going to happen upon you, when sch reopen, but back the reality, i am really behind time? cos my coursework is not done yet, i so called "promise" mr tay to finish my undone stuff. but it is going the end of hols and nothing is done. shit! i am so lost. i dunno which 1 to start. crap!!! nvm, do my hmwk first, b4 some tchers screamed at me. -_. my mum is away. and i am so worried.=.= seriously this is the first time i felt like tht. lol. but hope she will be back soon. cos i can bear to do the housework myself. ok then, i got tuition tmr, sigh.

cya soon.

XOXO;

shaz

Action speak louder than words.

2009-03-18T23:00:00.007+08:00

Smile always. :D

XOXO;

shaz

What is reflection to you?

2009-03-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

This qns is always lingering in my mind.

"Let me hold you for the last time it's the last chance to feel again but you broke me now i can't feel anything when I love you,it's so untrue i can't even convince myself when I'm speaking,It's the voice of someone else oh it tears me up i try to hold on, but it hurts too much i try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay you can't play on broken strings you can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel i can't tell you something that ain't real oh the truth hurts and lies worse how can I give anymore when I love you a little less than before oh what are we doing we are turning into dust playing house in the ruins of us running back through the fire when there's nothing left to save it's like chasing the very last train when it's too late."

I am feeling moody this days. i am not the usual banana, i dunno y. but i just wan update everyone, march hols has began and i am closer to mid year and the major exams. and this anxiety is kiilling me. oh shit. nvm, there is saying, "stress now later can enjoy". lol. its direct translate so maybe u nv heard it b4. but watever, as long i understand, can alr. nways, liu, i am happy for you. and ur friend is super funny la, nice knowing him. LOL. okay la, a short post today, tmr, i also have class. Practical for chem, :D
ok, gd nite ppl.

TC.

XOXO;
shaz

p.s:the italic part is from the lyrics of broken strings by James Morrison and Nelly furtado. i just wanna share cos the lyrics is v meaningful

After a long break.

2009-03-14T10:19:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies:
Kulvin: oh, hii. ok linked.
Nicole:hii. done.
Mary: Happy for uu/.
!

Tag aside. i want to blog.

Amasing its been some time since i blog. everyone is pestering me to update but i am busy, ytd was the last day of common test week. i am sooo relief but feeling worried abt hows my result goonna be like. cos this result will show me if i am able to study by my self anot. Sigh. life is so unfair. but i will just have bear with it. :(

During the common test nv get to do fun stuff. but i get to go home earlyy!! hahahaha. maybe u find it lame but on common test we were able to go home early and no need to stayback for "it"
But i think i will be back, cos i screww my maths. i am so disappointed with it. Has alot of careless mistakes. YYYYYYY?? soo frustating!! but not a happy side. i am bonded with my cca juniors alr.:)) hahaha. esp SHAFIQQQQ he is super funny laa. he rolled in CPA lab. and he has thiss unique s. u shld see him, when u see him u will will really laugh so hard. hahahahahhah!!!! now the cca really vv stress. so many things happening and so little time. i think by april i am going to step down. and by tht time i will be busy with remedials alr liaoo. lol. and i will leave the stuff to brendi for her to do.. wuahahhaha!! jyjyjy:DDDDDD
ok nothhing much to say cos my life is sooo boring. butbut i planning to MIROTIC's album but it is uperr expensive la. hope someone will buy for me for my present which was still pending/. LOL.
oklah takecare everybody.

XOXO;
shaz

"What is reflection to you?"

p/s: i will upload the photos soon.

Rant!

2009-02-22T22:32:00.006+08:00

"Oh damn it! everytime i blog i wan complain first. okay, fine blogging is free topic i can blog abt anything i feel uneasy abt. (as long not hurting anyones feeling) i noe my limit. ok. i think i am going too. cos my feelings are hurt, this not fair!i am not happy, wat kind of human with feelings saying something rude and not apologizing after tht. is either too stupid/dumb/bimbotic.!! Argh so frustating. did so much things and w/o thinking other ppl feelings u say something Fucking rude. bitch!! u think i am ok with it. i am so pissed off when i thinking abt this f*king remark!! seriously. sometimes. i have to bare with ur shit and after tht i have to shit it out after u go/. so its like i am doing a favour for u to help u SHIT! "

Oh, finally. On a happier note: i am starting to love maths!! yah!!! lol. must practice more then i will fall in love with maths. lol. hahha. weird rite, i say i love/like maths, i think i am insane or maybe is the fact. ahahhahaa. the theory is i have to study hard don give up i guess. oh, i am starting to love koreans too!! ahhaha, becos of my partner la.. lol. FULL HOUSE super funny. DBSK rocks. :DDDDDDDD, i changed, my friends changed too.

esp: mary liu. she sooo chio le. ahhaha. its true,

Oh, its going midnight. i am not sleeping yet. ok.

blog soon.

XOXO;

shaz

Angry

2009-02-12T19:38:00.003+08:00

Oh crap. Today i have no mood. so many remarks and shitty comment. sometimes i can stand it. Seriously it takes a lot of courage to not scream at someone if u fking angry! i am angry because of 4785646545132132 millions reasons!! one of them, biasness@@@ if u prefer guys don be so obvious. girls do have feelings too u noe. u shld be smart to notice ur mistake. i am not finding fault or wat but i think they shld get punish or "shouling" to be appropiate! its not fair. if u don do anything. this will continue till i graduate, if this happens u not doing ur job which u r being paid!!Sigh.Nvm, if u cant help. i have to help myself. which will take so long to solve becos they lack of maturitty, "it takes two hands to clap" so u shld understand this theory.

enough saying. i feel much better after vomiting out the words :D

* I have change my blog skin. i hope u like it. the monkey picture was irritating to me alr.

Valentine's on sat. don be sad, can celebrate earlier. LOL.
anyways, i will post pictures.

XOXO;

shaz

I hate you,hypocrite.

Nervous.

2009-02-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

What a moment, an awkward one. but treat it like nothing. Maybe theres saying,

"History repeats itself" but u have the abilty to make it repeat anot. short term; i have a choice. So i shld be having tht kind of feeling. or i shld focus on my goals and dreams and not some nonsense stuff. I have to do checkpoints. not dreaming. be realistic and not playing virtual games in my mind. Say to myself repeatedly. its nothing. NOTHING. Just crap so i have to be in real world not lala land.

Real Life,

i have been v busy this days, if i am not busy teachers will make me busy so i'll keep myself busy. But i need a little time. v little for my private/personal life. i don think they have a prob with it cos i think they shlf one too. Oh, i am still not recovered form my sickness. last friday, i was too sick to come to sch. cant breathe my way thr. wat a scene. so now i will blog awhile for me to relief stress. social and physically. if i could write this long it SS/Geo. i guess i will pass the exams maybe it will happened if i work hard. Sch been fine but sometimes i feel i am in a prison. i dunno la. my feeling are mixing like fruit punch or vomit. watever. always coming home late. i feel tht i am used to it. no worries. for me. Its a good sign. :) i wan to get Distinction for common test. they say u have to aim high so i shld heed their advice. for me to do well. and get out from "wall to wall study". Hope so.

Till then

God love u and me.

XOXO;

shaz.

We're just friends!

Busy.

2009-01-31T00:41:00.007+08:00

Fine, staying back till 5 evryday is the best way to pass my test then be it. watever. damn it! i going crazy alr. i have no freedom.always doing self study. i dunno if i should say it positive action to do. god noes. sigh, really sound pathetic, i only get to go online or blog only on the weekend, i guess its a good sign, tht i am studying. more tests and hmwk coming. ohdamnit, have to create a situation soon. i am brain dead, so it will be laggy to come out new idea. argh! stop toking abt sch!make me dizzzzzzy!! recently me and cousins went to my little cousin birthday party, he was just 1 yrs old, and had alr had a birthday party so lucky!!!!!!. he is ssssssssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!!! LOL. the party was held in a chalet. we had to walk for half an hour to look for it, aiyee, nvm its a good exercise to me, :D good thing i nv eat alot thr, maybe i was full. watever la. hahahahahahha/!!! ok, i will upload the pics of him. :}}}}} anyways, i am starting to miss my friends, i have been busy with my self study and stuff i seldom meet up with my frens. :((( i found a tuition centre le,:)) starting tmr. yipeee.
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TO those ppl Wh0 are curious: goddamfuking shit, stop asking me if my brother is straight or not?!?!?! its none of my bussiness so do u. MYOB. stop asking, this effing qns is pissing me off, thank you. :D

I Hate This Part - Pussycat Dolls
XOXO; shaz

Pictures in random position.
some from my cousin party.
some from the trip at Fish and Co.
some is taken in some restaurant call eighteen chef?(cant rmb)
becareful! heavy images!!

SOOOOOOO CUTE!

LOL!

p/s: the food is sooo delicious and affordable.:))) u shld try it, it is at fusionopolis, 2 stops after buona vista mrt starion. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Sian,

2009-01-17T01:11:00.002+08:00

Hello!!
So long ever since i last blog. so busy!! everyday grp study!! wah, i going crazy. but they say it is for my good. ok watever. LOL. i still haven find a tuition teacher!! die, :(
recently i witnessed the release of O level results and the atmosphere was kinda exciting. the results by the students wasnt good. but i guess they did their best le. :))) wah, nx yr is my turn, i am going siao liao!! cos of my maths!! gone case liao la.. i just wish for the best.:DDDDD

Wont u feel disappointed when someone tells you?- "alah. u no hope one la". given a chance and want to change but ppl just are stubborn to help. always giving negative comments. really sad.from now onwards must be thick-skin and don care wat those jerks say. just do my best. as if they so good also.they should do some reflections. -.-

"Study consistently, with extra hard work. i can do it." LOL.

ok, lazy to go on.

Take care.

XOXO;
shaz

Worries

2009-01-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

OMG! the tutors are not insight. i shld be paniking. yes! i am panic now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
oh well. Its the 4th day of sch le and i am so stress, die. Self-study starting tmr. i will be home till 530. no more jokes. study,study,study!! :( i thinking i going go bongus. LOL. just kidding lol. yup, mr low reminded the "special program" students to go to the library to self study.i am not enjoying myself in malay class. its boring. sigh.
ok la.
i shld be going to slp le. tmr going to be a long day for me.

p's: Dont worry about things that are beyond your control.

XOXO;
shaz

Friends.

2009-01-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

ohhello.
i am currently feeling hungry, shtt!! damn it. i should kick the habit eating late at nite. ;x
ughHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!
anyways, chatted with my old pri sch fren on msn. wat a chat, as if we just new each others. haha! no la we just nv met for quite along time. miss her. all the best for her results. :))
as for me i must work vvvv hard!!! i am so stress now, my bro is taking N this yr and he is been missing always out with his friends more than having time with the family. he is been telling lies to me and i am sooo piss off with him. i don object who u are frens with but u should noe ur limits too. so pls understand, for ur own good.

I NEED TO FIND A TUTOR ASAP!!!!!

anyone who have suggestions tag me.
- i need someone to help me with my maths/subs.
-Payment- affordable.
-can teach on sats.

pls help.
thanks.

XOXO;
shaz

New Yr.09

2009-01-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hello!
finally, its 2009. been waiting for that long ago.
I want to move on and forget the past. focus on my studies. and do my best, i am given a chance i cant take advantage of it.
31dec.
went to celebrate with my jiaos. bought a lot of snacks we spent our time eatin and chatting. i was lazy to go to the places whr they had countdown. it will be vvvvvv crowded. i hate crowd cant breath. so decided to sit at rooftop and enjoy the breeze and fresh air tgt awaiting 09 to come by. :)
30dec.
was my last day at work. kinda sad but i will miss them, :DDD miss those nagging and gossipping.LOL. but i had learned a lot. those good and bad ones. and FUSSSSy customers. hoo. damn it. REALLY AN EXPERIENCE! but not all fussy la. hahahahaha!! cool!
then, nth much le.
But i got my baby le!!! OMG@@@ nice!!!
cant sleep or go out without it. lOVE YOU!!!!
hahahhaha, not someone but something.
my long long long long wish!!!! finally it belongs to me.
wuahahahahhaha!!
i am going insane, i just love it.
oh love the shopping trip too!!! with my beloved mum. yo!
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i have done a vdeo but i am lazy to upload.. i will post it if i have ediited it. ;p
Till then,

XOXO;
shaz

Love you then hate u now.

twilight..

2008-12-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

Hello.
zh recently held a Christmas party, but eventually it turn out to be a gathering whr frens meet up again after a long hols. ahhaha, it was fun la. get to meet the ppl u miss. :) lol.

damn i so lazy to type i will just write a short post ba,
went to watch twilight with sia and zh ytd. last minute thing. sia was late but it was ok la. he so called reached on time. :)) but the sad part was we had the first row, really exactly in front of the big big screen. damn it!! i had to look up high to watch the movie, i almost puke, got so giddy. -.- so many ppl!! heng we go it. the show was really touching, i almost felt emo. a vampire fall in love with a human did everything to save his love one is it really touching. :DDDD lol.

Pictures:

Zh idea, LOL.

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the day before ytd i went for the interview and the made me feel shitty. heartless ppl. sigh/.

PROVE THEM WRONG!

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XOXO;
Shaz

P/s: Merry Christmas everyone. HOHOHO!!

Dead

Effing news.

2008-12-19T01:12:00.001+08:00

Shit.

Results.

2008-12-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

OMG! i am going to get my results today!!!! so worried~!!! hows my result?is it a pass or FAIL!? argh1!!!! i am sooooooooooooooooooooo the nervous. wish me luck guys. :)) i must have confident.
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-.- i just got a hair cut, i am not sort of happy with my hair cos its too short. boohoo. damn sad. :'( its ok, it will grow so no worries, ;))))))))))))))))))))) hahahaha!!! mushroomzz <<33
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Don try to contact me. i wan to run away from u. u are just a evil ass hole. who is coward. i cant stay hang on there loonger, i will be a stupid ass@@@. maybe losing u is a best way. focus in studies. love and relationship can wait. i need to reach my goal. not to spoil it.its for ur own good.
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LOL, back to my topic. i am here to UPDATE my blog co some ppl say my blog expire le. -.-
ok, i decided to have 1 job and feel half happy abt it. cos some stuff are solved in my mind, :)
oh, ya, dang funny i have to share with u ppl la. i do cashier and it connects withmoney/VISA/Mastercard and all those different cards la. i have a difficult time memorising those stuff. >< i did something wrong la. then she was like screaming so loudly until everyone (other managers)kept asking me wat happened. i just shrugged. LOL but i am ok la. the manager nag i ignoore. lol. no offence,next time i try to do my best i guess, ;))
then another manager asked me " y u go cut hair?"
"hahahahah, cos u kena scold be manager A(the one screaming at me) u go cut hair"
lol.
school gona open real soon. but Christmas coming first yeah!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVRYONE.

xoxo;
shaz

busy,

2008-12-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

been v cold this days, wearing long sleeves to work. ./.
Okay, just wanna blog cos been a quite sometime since i last blog.so decided to blog. okay. today did some shoooping with jm. miss her lahh. cos nv see her frequent. hahaha.
anyways i miss a lot off ppl. my cousins is away from country, so do mel. haha. she now at taiwan for hols. so good!! :)) Yuwen too. sigh. i wish i could go too.
toking abt friends. result is releasing soon. not sure yet, but i am so nervous thinking abt it. if i could afford to go sec 5 and continue my studies OR have to go some other route.. and i dunno wat course to take, damn frustating. and also. i am currently handling 2 job and i dunno wish to continue after hols end,. i cant afford to not work. at least once a week ok le.
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friends come and go. so u have to prepare, don get so devastated when ur freinds leave u. there will be another stranger to be ur friend so don worry^^ i apply this theory to myself. :)

i cant hang on anymore.its getting loose.

haha, i done ranting, hope i choose the correct decision/.
take care.
XOXO;
shaz

busy!

2008-11-28T23:15:00.001+08:00

hahaha. new neoprint. lolol/ been v v v busy this days. becos of work. onlly get off for one day. so not much of going out. is either lazy or no time. same routine not much different. i really wan go out shopping sooon:DDDD hahaha.

recently. ya, last wed went to the zoo. zh got free ticks so invited me and jm to go to the zooo/. cool! u got to see the white tigers mating. LOL (sry i don have the pics, its wif zh) i upload soon, :DD when i get it. damn funnny la. the whole trip i just wanted to seee the tigers but we could not findd our way, the zoo changed alot soo we can reallly tell whr is whr la. -.- so in the end got to find it, but didnt get to see the polar bears and the penguins cos it started raining so we decided to head home. LOL.
yup. nth much alr. okay. followed by intensive working long hours. thts all.
bye folks.
tc.
XOXO;
shaz

I dont want to share love with anyone~.

Nothing.

2008-11-23T19:01:00.001+08:00

Missing my friends. ):

For advertorial uses:
Oh, just done toking to my friend, she opened a blogshop. i viewed her blog shop. Aww man. her clothes she selling damn chio!!!
u should visit her. maybe some will attract you!! :))))))) hahaha, oh, she doesnt just sell tops but "handmade pencil cases" cool or wat?!!?! hahaha its quite worth la. 8dollars. u go outside do handmade stuff, 30 dollars++ liao. this 8/. of course
Handmade pencil cases. u shld Choose.
Especially those couples!!! u wan ur lovely pics to be shown u can place on the pencil case:))))
Visit her and have a closer look. :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]
http://www.wardrobe-county.blogspot.com/
*school gonna open soon. and valentines is coming real sooooooooooooooooon la. lol. but still can get earlier presents.:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

haha. no worries, she do meet up too. no need go ATM tranfer money. lol. this method more reliable./
more info email to eunice.younice@live.com. she will reply asap.

Experience in ToyRus.

2008-11-20T11:58:00.000+08:00

i am finally away from the bust of working. now i get to blog, started my new jobs three days ago. i do the same thing but diff environment.ok la. i get along with the new ppl but some just refuse to be connected. watever, not my prob. as long as i can get along with some i am ok. but if u don get along with manager, its not really good thing to say la. but maybe u try to be friendly but they think u are new and theres no need to noe. i have no comment abt tht la. zzz. crap!! i damn stress now always shouting to the ppl tht is close to me, esp jm. so sry, i am not angry wif u but i am just stress and cant control my anger. so sry, and to my bro i noe u are irritating, sometimes i can take it but not always, ok? so when i stress don be irritating, u will regret, i will be shouting at you evry single day. (: lol.
seriously, i tot higher pay means good ppl and rules but not. is all in mess. i work thr is becos of the salary and not to be friendly. not worth it.!!but i cant say much. the experience is impt. so in future its good, u will be prepare to expect in your line of job. it depends. on urself but u have a good attitude for work but ur co worker or collegue not happy with u. i think is their problem.
example, if u come to work for the first day, they nv teach u much. 2nd day they expect you to noe every thing is BUULLSHIT!!! whr got ppl noe secrets w/o anyone telling them rite. so this teory can be applied to eg. -.-
hope this breakdown communication can stop i will be much happier working with my employer.(:
ok.
blog when i am free,
XOXO;
shaz

Boring.

2008-11-16T22:28:00.001+08:00

hugsandkisses. <3

Listen

2008-11-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

Beyonce;Listen.

Listen to the song here in my heart

a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]

Listen

I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Now I'm done believing in you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what

You've made of me

I followed the voice, you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened

There was someone here inside

Someone I thought had died

So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out

And my dreams will be heard

They will not be pushed

Aside or turned

Into your own

All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]

Listen

I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what

You've made of me

I followed the voice, you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened

I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you

You don't know not what I am feeling

I'm more than what you've made of me

I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own!!

XOXO;

shaz

Boredness occurs.

2008-11-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

its been raining this days. went to an interview for an job today. :) ahha, ok, the manager was ok. lol, clicked with wif her. lol. i wan get the job. so i can earn more money. yeah. whoo/.

Then, went to meet my jm&zh for movie. went to watch madagascar. hahha. tht movie damn funny la.hahahahah. evryone in the movies were laughing sooo loud, hoho! this days is soo boring, lol.so went to play facebook games called pets society. okla not bad, cute game. thts mine pet. hahaha.

hahhaa. love them. LOL. (the small creature nv really comeout freq but its CUTE@@)
my character called Chinchan, :DDD

cos of boredness i play. then besides playing i do go edit pics, lol.

haha, 1 of the pics. ;o

haha, miss tht girl. i like her new hairsytle, damn cute la.. hahahha. LOL.so sry yw. i just like to praise u, ;p ur life in taiwan damn good la, i s'pore dang boring la. sian, sian !! u noe wat i hate when i am bored i will start listening to emo songs. boohoo. lol. ps. mind my ranting. pfft.

ok luh, enough of me.

blogsOOn,

XOXO;shaz

Update,

2008-11-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Hello.
hahaha. its late and i am still awake, lol. tmr go work. ok i will make a quick post. haha. just changed my blogskin took so long to make it nicely == for now i am happy wif my blogskin. if too bored i will just changed it again. lol. hahaha.cant wait to meet mel soon. gah! so going out with her. long time nv go out with her, now Os are officially over. (for some)we can go out.yipeeeeeeeeeeee/lol.
ok luh,
blog soon.
p/s: i enjoyed going with my mum.
XOXO;
shaz

Quiz from Gekpeng.

2008-11-11T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hello. i here to tag gp quiz.
Instructions : Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. than tag 8people from your list, list them out at the end of the posting.Notify them in there tag board that he/she has been tagged.

Questions:q1)Does people treat you as side dish?-I don't think so.
q2)Whats your most favourite thing to do?-hahaha. disturb ppl.
q3)What is the first thing that comes to your mind of when you think of love?-Guys.
q4)What kind of boyfriend/ girlfriend do you want?-funny and lovable. lol
q5)Is there somebody in your heart right now?-my darling/.
q6)Do you believe that you can survive without money?-no. i'll die.
q7)Are you afraid of pain?-it depends.
q8)What do you feel like doing now?-go out.
q9)If there is someone you love, will you confess to him/her?-yup.
q10)List 5 things/people you dislike now.-i prefer to disclose it.
q11)What is your 5 most passionate things at the moment?-making new friends.fixing the broken, be with my love. go shopping!!be wif my family.
q12)If you have to eat 1 thing for your whole life, what would that be?-my family.
q13)If you have a chance to be rich or happy, which one will you choose?-both can.
q14)If you have th chance, which part of your character would you like to change?-the part i always take care my frens but no myself.
q15)If you are unhappy, what will you do?-Blog it or vent my anger at jiaming(:
q16)Which country do you like the most?-My hometown.
q17)Which is your favourite band?-The Jonas Brothers.♥
q18)Are you happy?-ya,
q19)What are you planning to buy anysoon?-hahaha. i saving up to buy an ipod. (:

hahhaa,
anyone who are bored feel free to tag my quiz.
ty.(:
p/s: staying at home is boring.
blog soon.
XOXO;
shaz

Quiz from YUWEN!!

2008-11-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

Halooooooooooo.
hahaha.
i am gona do YUWEN's quiz:)))
hmm.
Write 10 things about yourself&pass it on to 10ppl.

My friends call me shanaz.
i am in love with bananas!!
i always make ppl laugh for no reason.
i am taaalll.
i treasure my friends.
i hate ppl to irritate me.
i love irritating ppl.
i love mac :)
i work for mac^^ (v.v.v. proud of it)
i think YUWEN is cuteeeeeeeeee. hahaa.

ok thts the 10 things abt me, :D

pass to ten ppl.
Yongling.
Hazel ip.
Hazel teo.
Shirin.
Haiqa
Xiuping.
Gekpeng.
Raimi.
Louie.
Ten.

haha. no idea le.
ok.
take care ppl.

XOXO;
shaz

Expressive time.

2008-11-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

i am super happy today. haahhaha. i am gona post alot of biggggggggg pictures.

i am recovering. :D

today went job hunting again. with jia ming.

manage took a picture at the toilet. lol.

OMG! this picture i have to share wif u all. so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee!! my cousin looks almost the same.;)

ahhahahahaha, recently went out wif yl. she went shopping. she don even bother blog la. hahah. kidding don angry. lol. now i blog abt you, happy? hmm, we went vivo-shop-eat sushi-home.
on the way home, i saw;gays. its hard to believe la, tot it was a girl and guy but same gender. the guy as in the guy is really hott lah, muscles buldging out? lol as in the shirt damn tight la.. LOL.
Blah!~
while eating we got took some pics lah, but i upload some. :)))) psst. i like her hair. damn chioo lahh.><

go out shopping soon.!! :]
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some pics tht i haven upload.
East coast trip.

Job hunting wif jia and lisa.

trip to help ada find her prom dress. ;/

feeling gay!!~~

LOL.

take care ppl.

XOXO;

shaz

Broken Heart,

2008-11-05T13:37:00.000+08:00

Oh, my hearts hurt till now. the pain is unbearable.i think my heart is gone. i cant feel anything, just the feel of piercing in it.i trying to forget abt you. i have to make myself bz to be able to forget those scary moments. you make me think big cos i have no confident wif myself but u are the problem, hidding behind the walls, trying to make urself be happy but u r not with wat u have. trying doing this forever, u will collapse 1 day. just wait.
Its all ur fault. u noe u are greedy but u just don wan it to stop. having 2 ppl loving you.is a great pleasure. but u just love 1. forget it. u make ur choice. i am OUT of ur life.

XX;
shaz

Forgive and Forgett.

2008-11-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

PLS, the matter has been ignored. do not waste ur time commenting on my tag. i blog is abt my life not YOU
Thank you,

i just got back from ECP. went wif hong and jia playing roller blade and cyling. hahaha. gd experience, should try it again. (: it was my first time on inline skating, trip alot of times. but after tht used to it le. haha. but still not so good. we didnt spend a long time thr cos we were thr like 5+ so ard 9 were off home. 7++ i stopped. leg damn pain la.. LOL. so let them play.:/

hmm, today is the end of SAP. yeah!! i am free for 2 months. :)actually not really 2 months+- lor.and will be waiting for my results in mid dec. so good luck all. so its time for me to find job. hmm, not easy getting a job seh. wahh, sickening. so now waiting for them to interview me. also not sure will get anot?! anyways,
i'm too tired le.
blog soon.

XOXO;
shaz

Friends.

2008-10-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

Hello.
life is really a hard job. so much difficulties. if u don catch up u lose the battle. arguments occurs when u r in a bad mood or someone done wrong, if someoone is saying u obvious there is a reason behind it. but in the first place u must noe wats the reason b4 saying the person. Human have feelings. they will get sad/angry/happy. but u cant simply take advantage abt it. like u said. budhha also get angry. cos he is a human, don u get angry? so wats wrong wif me being angry and u are laughing abt it. it is damn stupid laa. LAME.

not bloging soon.
goodbye.

XOXO;
shaz

UR CHOICE!

2008-10-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

wow. not bad story, just visiting ppl blog.u can say me and yet tok to me. whr is ur fren? where u have known for 4 years, better than me which only noe him for 1 year, hahhaa. tok to him la. i got other frens and u have other frens. yup. 1 year is too fast i cant presume anything tht i have concluded for ur fren who u've known 4 bloody long yrs,. I loves listening to storys here and there. eh, no u spelled it like "storeys" hahah, OMG! a 20 years old girl cant spell the most easy word?!!? wow!! so old still dunno hw to spell properly, damn funny. hhahahahahahaha. so embarassing!

i am really shocked. everyone in class knew i was the most nicest person towards u only somtimes i make u angry but i do apologise. but u think u have a fren who have helped u alot. make u changed into who u are now? u get rejected by all ur so called bfs, who is the one who comforted u? who accompany to recess and ur shopping trip?> oh, is ur fren , who u known for 4 years.

Oh, fyi: i really do not need ur sympathy,pls reflect urself.
And like hello, i need to be cool to be known? and wth, wif you asking me to be myself., is my choice, u jeaslous? ppl just favour me more than? watever la, ur choice.
NONE OF MY BUSINESS.
U WAN ME TO GO OUT IN UR LIFE? sure. u have ur own frens, i can go wif my other frens.

wth, i should sound more childish cos i am only sixteen and u are twenty. NO BIG DEAL! if u are twenty./ SO?
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Sheesh, grudging about some childish twenty yrs old. not worth while.
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Feeling angry/sad, don bother smsing me or calling.
Goodbye.:D

hahahaha.

Not much time.

2008-10-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

ALOHA!!
hahaha. i love my new skin. big man. u can see wat u wan see rite, gd job to editor. Wow, i can smell it the hols.!! but i too tired to plan wat to do. evry teacher rushing to finish wat they wan to share wif us.hmmm.. so u ppl thinking to work this hols? earn some money for shopping or help ur family. different ppl different ideas. ytd send yw off, it was the first time sending ppl away. so i was kinda of emotional laaaa. i was ren-ing lah./ hahahaha, in my mind i kept repeating to myself. "yw is coming back." i kept repeated it zillion of times. so i wont feel sad. pfft. i noe. i am lame. whahahahhahaha.
anyways. she coming back soon. so no worries.lol.
oh, i rmb my main topic today. i do not have enough time.
i repeat again. I DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! dang?!!! hmwk are pilling up. i am too sick to finish it up. my deepavali celebration is less than 12 hours, i am so not disorganize!!! Shitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!! and i have no time!! no time!! no time!! OMG!! i cant afford to be sick if not i willl DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMM!! Aww man, god help me. NO, i am the only one who can help myself. :)
Enough, i'll blog soon. goodnight,
TC.

XOXO;
shaz

Love is blind?

Feeling Shitty.

2008-10-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

What is the world turning to? Doomsday coming? serious this qns is v irritating when it is in my head. I thought there is a phrase saying "Friends Forever", hahahha. i don think this exist. i don believe in tht. if u have hurting me or anyone, u should tell them/me on the face. u no need to control someone to help you. its useless. it wont help u either so y bother? Aww man, is damn sad to say la. u swear/promise u will be friends forever, but evrything is fake. I'm saying u have to believe me but ur common sense shld at least feel it? I don noe i have real good friends but bcause of under influence. this kind of stuff happened. ;/
to make me happy, i decided to chg my blog skin more bigger. the fonts and the pictures. hahaha/ hahappy.!! ^^

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Today. HSM was cool!! hahaha. i like their songs is much better than last HSM. lol. oh the actors. amazing! love them especially;Lucas Grabeel. he look gong dang cute la.

Not his "gong" look. haha. cant find it. sry.

anyways.

i went with my standard friends. hehe. plus my cousins, Rudy and lisa. :]

Lisa cant make it, cos she was late. sian, lol. damn sad la, tot my cousins and i have a reunion. but nvm, after movie went to find lisa. rudy went due to his soccer reasons. -...- so walked ard orchard rd, later, jm/zh left. lefft me and lisa. went starbucks. to CHIIIIIIIIIILLLL!! lol. chit chat. tok cock eh, ps same meaning laa. lol. oh and the movie were almost packed.. heng we book tickets. hhhaahahahha.

Pictures after movie.

lol.

Liu.

"you are a gd fren to me, but sometimes u really forget who is ur true fren who is not. i pity u.i don mind who u frens with but u have to take care urself. " shaz.

Hhahaa, some otw home/at starbucks.

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Yw is flying off soon, less than 24 hours.

gna miss her. take care.

banana <3

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done.

blog sooon.

left 4 more days to end SAP.

gd luck.

XOXO;

shaz

COUSINS.

2008-10-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

GEeelllooo!!
hahaha. i am so happy!! just ended conferencing with my cousins. for the first time baabe!! damn cooool laa. haha. they soo cute, we were toking to zh abt booking tickets for tmr. HSM. wah. so excited, after SAP, i chiong home to chg and meet them,at PS. (: yeah!!! woooooooooooohhooooooooooooooo!!! loving it.

oopss/ its premering TMR, 24 october 2008.

hahhaha. cannnnnnnnt wait. muahaahaha...

TODAY; went IKEA. bought some storage boxes for my stuff, it is getting too much. no good reasons but just tht it is sale season, every price dropped. hahhaha.love the feeling when i am shopping, it feels like freedom? joy? happiness. gagagah!! i dunno. not alot of words can describe this sensation. SHUANG?!?!!? haha, don think so. yw leaving soon. sian.. going miss her, see u sooon, yw.(:

hugsandkisses;shaz,

SAP

2008-10-21T22:03:00.001+08:00

10.10pm.
its been 1 day after SAP, i am feeling kinda low. i am lonely, all my chit chat kaki's nv come. sian, Yl, ML, L. sigh.. anyways, best wishes for them, may they do want in life.(:
Now, i am alone and i understand. i cant just be with my friends forever. u dont share ur exams result with ur fren. u get on ur own accord.whether u study anot?! so siting by myself, doing class work alone. it will be fine. but i shld not be worry, i have my other friends. my classmates and calculator, jm. hhahaha/. she help me with my financial stuff. hahaha. lolol. oh, they also help me with my studies, not forgetting the teachers. ;DD
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i have to buck up and do my work in time, no lagging. :))))
CONCENTRATE!!!!

okok.
i miss toking to you.
i'll blog soon.
tmr got sch.
tc.
XOXO;
shaz

BUTterfly lover's

2008-10-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

Hello. ^^

hahha,

nv been blogging cos i wa busy looking for new jobs. going to interviews, filling up application forms, thts my routine for the past few weeks, haha. but it was good experience, see how ppl work as a interviewer? they ask u random smart questions to see hw is ur character is and how are like? as in the attitude and brain,smart enough to do smth? somewhere there lah, just a brief explaination. :)))))))did those wif couple of frens, liu and jm. thanks guys for the company. hahahaha/ i like.

Ytd, we went out early and manage to watch the movie, butterfly lover's.

Lead actor is Wu chun!!!! he soooo hott lah. evryone in the cinema was going like,
" hao shuai wor!! " i was like diao. i noe but no need say out loud la, .___. it was those kind of swordmen show la, wif those long hair, and swords and most martial arts~!!! hahaha, a brief of it. u shld watch it. the last part "v" interesting, ;/ usually i have alot of stuff to blog but by the time infront of the comp i will either forget wat to type or kena disturb ppl from msn. hahaha. no worries i don mind de ,LOLSo now, i waiting for call from the company i tried, i hope i get the job but not all cos i tried alot -.- if all come at 1 time, i die la.. dunno which to choose. wah.. NO COMMENT.

ok. i just come back from hort park wif jm, she sian then call me out. lol. she damn bo liao laa. walk up went to henderson waves then come dwn to the hort park, i still dunno y is it call hort park? make it sound like it is vvvv hot like tht. hahahahah/ yw thinks so. hahah.

shitt laaa. cant upload pics. sian. nvm, i wiill post some other.for now. GOODBYE(:

tc.

XOXO;
shaz

why not me?

sleepovers

2008-10-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

Hey!
i am back from my cousin house went to sleep over at her house, lol. nv really do much there cos she will busy smsing her friends or toking to her guy,aiyo. i so sian la, no entertainment, i entertain myself, zzzz. i waited for her la, but it was too late alr, IT IS 4 IN THE MORNING!!!!! i cant take it anymore. i go slp liao la, i cant even tok properly.lol, wah, she can even say tht she not slpy after she put down the phone at 4AM, mai siao siao. i ignored her, and go slp liao. some sort regretted staying over. hhaha. no ooffence. but i like to go her hse cos got starhub cable. >__.
ytd, her mum ask us to slp early, but she didnt. lololol. next morning which is today, i woke earlier than her. watched tv and ard 12 she was awake. amzing.... then eat lunched. cos tooo late for breakfast. lololol. after tht went to meet liu, go job hunting and go buy her wallet.
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Expensive always stay in shape longer than the cheap one. so if ur wallet gets spoil easily is because u didnt take care of it or its made of china, ;)
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so convince her to MYUK wallet. e best!! hahahaha/ and she bought it. cool cool;)))))liu, reassure it will last long hahhaa.anyways, today u look good, but abit skimpy, if those were much bigger, u will be super chio lahh. hahha/someone will like??? lolol. u noe who. liu?
walk ard plaza, she went to look for jobs. filling up application forms and a quick interview and waited for her, -,0 now my leg pain. pfft. sad...
nvm, helping a friend. :DDDDDD

oh, saw ys on the way orchard.
YS: hey see u in sch:)

yaya, and i saw my cousin half way wif her fren at orchard. ate dinner tgt. lol. Psst: she was wearing yellow too!! same as me. diao... so not outstanding. lolol.

okay, smth abt ytd and today.
SAP starting sooon... so ready to go back sit at home rot is damn boring. lol.
yahooooooooooooooooo!!!! wuhahahaha.><

blog soon.
bye.

xoxo;
shaz

Quizez.

2008-10-12T18:52:00.000+08:00

hello.
had work today. sian. wa, i hate holidays sometimes cos u will be spending more money during hols. and u will be like bankrupt. being bankrupt during hols is not a god thing. dang! heart pain/. went to malaysia a few days ago i think last thursday wif jm, i didnt spend on clothes but food. -.- aiyee. when u have money confirm ur hand will feel itchy to used it rite?? i have tht feeling now but rmb tht i haven paid the overdue handphone bills. pssst, my mum doesnt noe abt it. sighsigh. so now must start saving le. :)))))

ok now i have to do quiz tht gp and sq requested me to do. hmm.

The last person who tagged you is?Gekpeng.
Your relationship with him/her is?Friend..
Your five impression of him/her is?Funny, funnier, funniest.
The most memorable thing he/she done for you.Err, i think gp is v gd person but we just not close..
The most memorable thing he/she said to you.i don think so.
If she becomes your love, she'll have to improve on?Wth, the person who created this is damn smart.
If she becomes your enemy, you will ..I'll be sad,but i have to understand her .
If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? Everyone changes.
Your overall impression of her?super funny!
How do you think people around you will feel about you? I am damn funny..
The characteristics you love of yourself are? Oh god i am a legendary joker. lol.
On the contrary, the characteristics you hate yourself are?Eat too much.
The most ideal person you want to be is? i don wan to be a copy cat.
For people that care and like you, say something to them.
Thank you for being there for me when I'm unhappy, you guys sucks rocks :Dx.
Pass this quiz to 10 person you wish to know how they feel about you.
Yuwen1
Yongling2
Raimi3
Alvin4
Shiqi5
Gekpeng6
Pris7
Mary8
Brandon9
Chris10
(ignore who comes first, i love all my friends)x.
Who is no.6 having relationship with? she is single?
Is no.9 a male or female? Male.
If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? Nonono, not a good thing, alvin will be angry.
What is no.2 studying about? hahha, bakery?
When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? a few seconds ago.
What kind of music band does no.8 like?I think emo songs. not sure.
Does no.1 have any siblings?Yes . She has a sister.
Will you woo no.3?it wii be incest.
How about no.7? Cant la. she not available. hahha.
Is no.4 single? ya, i guess so?
What is the surname of no.5? LIM!
What is the hobby of no.10? socccer.
Does no.5 and 9 get along well? maybe, as brother and sister?
Where is no.2 studying at? Queensway Secondary School.
Talk something actually about no. 1. She sooo cool!!
Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? eh, wat kind of feelings? nv elaborate.-.-
Where does no.9 live at? Queenstown area?
What colour does no. 4 like? green? black? i not sure. sry bro!
Are no.5 and no.1 best friend?nope. they dunoo each other exist?
Does no.1 have any pets? ya? at taiwan counted?
Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? hmmm..
What is no.10 doing now? Sleeping?

Diao!

i have done the quiz liao. damn tired. lol.

blog soon.

tc.

xoxo;

shaz

update

2008-10-11T13:07:00.000+08:00

Hello.hahaha, its weekend so decided to blog, now, cant say anything tht is a secret becos this is not a private blog. so i will have to be prepare if anyone is spamming me or watever, but i don think i will be getting it so soon. lol. anyways. i am really worried nowadays if i can get to sec 5? this qns is always in my mind. i really worried. am i prepared to get the results which is in the middle december. OMG, it is so nerve racking i was looking through NP website.
on wat courses are available. and all the courses need maths. wah, damn shitt trouble now. i was aiming too D7 but they atleast nid a pass for tht, sigh, really irritating somtimes when u think ant this/ur future. seriously if i can get through sec5 i must work hard!! no more jokes man, seriously HARD work, i nid a tuition tchers. i cant afford it. argh!! watever la, i will just do my best. wish me luck.
To all students taking their N level. all the best in wat u do in life in regardless ur results.. :))))))

LOVES;
shaz.

XOXO

Secret.

2008-10-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hello. i am back. i just revealed my secret blog. i think i am stable enough to do so, so i put the link on PM.lol.thanks if u drop by. appreciated.:))) hmmm. now not a secret blog alr. hahaa. watever, i am happy now, coz i have taken my last paper and have time to slack for awhile. yeah!!
lazy to type. toking to my new fren. haha.
blog soon.
i am soooooooooooooooo feeling happy now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS CHAN!!

P/s: Hong yao is soo hott. Yuwen is damn cool. YL is super chio. hahaha
i am insane. LOL.

xoxo;
shaz

friends

2008-10-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

Wth!!

u noe wat guys. do u ever heard close friends forget friend, if u yes. good lah. but i nv heard before it is soooo fucking sad lah. help the frens so much and when u tok to them they cant rmb who are you!!! DIAO LAAA!!!

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so heart-broken now i blogging abt tht person cos he sucks, man! i hate you, idiot! i so good u trt me like tht. CB!! ugh!! so angry thts y i am blogging abt u to tell everyone to be aware of this person. shitttt you. hahahahah. i don even think u rmb my blog and i don think u be reading, argh!! watever lah, i shuang i blog la. none of ur business. OMG!! so pisss lah, damn it. i curse ALL ur frens run away from you becos of ur jerk/bastard attitude. maybe smoke too much till u forget, nvm, better u can even noe whr is dick lah! f*i feel like killing you. tok to u at msn and even ask who am i??!?!?!?! shitt u laa. i help u so much u can say i don tok to ppl i don noe. wah.. seriously u suck cock man!!!!

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sry, ppl i am sorry abt the vulgar. i cant control my feelings, i have nobody to vent my anger to anyone besides my beloved blog and my frens. SRY once again. Hope u mind me. THANK YOU.

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Watch ur frens. maybe 1 of them is imposter like tht "fren" of mine.

ok. take care.

hugs&kisses;

shaz

P/s: idiot get a life. _I_

blanked.

2008-10-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

HeY!

Omg, finally i got a mood to blog:)

okay, i have 3 more days to my last paper which is DnT, and i am still slacking, wth. hmm, finally i noe. so thts y i say my blog is my life. haha, last post was abt my cousins took pictures while house visiting, cool. didnt got so much collection but enough for some shopping, err, but i dunno i feel somethings not right but i am not sure, wtf, i dunno wat i wan. funny seh... seriously it is irritating when u nid smth but u dunoo wat. argh!! this is frustating... fugly!!

Wa, jia ming is insane! she been doing stuff to make her look whiter .____<

nvm, as a fren, hey jiaming, jy ba. after the hols see hows ur colour.:DDDD.LOL. As for me, after my last paper i soooooooooooooooooooooooo going to look for jobs. NEW jobs i mean, new experience.:}} it is gona be fun. yeah!!

eh, fiinallly , i feel soo full. after eating abit but jiaming she is asking me out to eat buffet. F*, like seriously i want to skip tht man, maybe postpone to some other day but she has the promo and it is going to end, zz/ man, i shld go more running wif YW! (:

haha, maybe b4 she leaves s'pore jiu her out for a run. i wan go henderson wave. it looks v cool. but nv been there, so sad lah.

to my cutest friends,who is taking EOY exams. gd luck and dont give up!!

ok.

love banana,

XOXO;

shaz

P/s: i sooo into baby photos! damn cute!! ><

Cousins.

2008-10-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

hahahahha. i cant act cute!!.__.

Cousins!!

haha. here some pics tht i took first day of hari raya(:
those are my cousins. Love them.
ok la. bye.
blog soon.

XOXO;
shaz

Hari raya(:

2008-10-03T20:22:00.001+08:00

Hello..
hmm,
i am going to have my last paper so decided to blog. i don't like to see my blog v sian. haha. LOL.
wth, _I_
i type nicely wan to post le. ALLL GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE. have to retype again....
ZZZZ.
i am sooo pissed off lahh/.
exams-screwed. forgetten the most precious stuff. esp for maths paper which is THE CALCULATOR. shitttttt. sway lahh. crap.
GAH!

after exam meet wif alvin(:,pris with her fren and liu. chit chat till we were bored and went home.((:

haha. last minute thingy.

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i will upload pics soon. i am lazy to upload, tired lahh.

P/s: YW u sooool cool. (((((: andddddddddddddddd

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGLING!!:DDD

XOXO;
shaz.

Blog

2008-09-29T22:29:00.001+08:00

Update soon!(:

Ps: Yuwen leaving soon. )':

gona miss her.

xoxo

life.

2008-09-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

i am ok. i now wit sluttty cousin:D lol
kidding, i hate the latest song T shirt, the MTV is so not decent, shitt. OMGOMG, she invading my house and i have no space, u little cheeky couisn, while i typing this she is reading, wth, lol,. nvm, FYI; she v kaypo type so ya.. i understand. and she is in LOVe with some guy which i will NOT name. hee. i respect her. Salutes! hahahahha. WU LIAO. hahhaa/.
skip tht, today sch was boring, had to do papers. again and again. siann.!!! ANd the sad thing is tht YONGLING nv come, v sadd!! :( mL always tok nonsense to me. ZZ
hahahahha. smths she irritate me and me pissed but she v funny. LOL. :)))) ohh, now my cousin is mad/crazy taking pictures non stop in mY house.
and N levels is like 3 days, Chiong arh!!!!!!
Goodluck my friends. love ya....

xoxo;
shaz.

I miss you.

Thanks my friendzxxx

2008-09-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

Omg!! recently i have been emo and lasy to blog. It is not my prob is my PMS destroying me!? confession of me wanting to die is not shanaz banana would say but the PMS syazana will say. seriously regretting saying tht, to YL, YW: thanks for comforting me, i appreciate it soooo much.:DDDDD The PMS thing will go over soon, yeah!!! i am sooo glad, :)))))) i think i am ok soon, SOOOON!?! yes, lately i have a misunderstanding with a friend and his attitude makes me want to puke! so i decided to go away from his life, i think when we go separate ways, it will be lovely, i focus in wat i wan to do which is getting sec 5, ahahha, wish me luck peeps:DD anyways i am soo happy today, cos i have improved? i saw the results for prelims and my position increased which means i did better this time, OMMG!! ahhaah. i am soo feeling gay. lol.

But thinking of someone fucking irritating make me wan to stab him in the hate and give him a well-known and effective face wash, make him clean his face thousand times b4 he wan bully me. _I_tht bastard!! he is sooo no man! even have the Fugly face to beat girls. tsktsk , nimamameiyoujiaonimeh??!! CB!
Heartless freak!!! i curse u no one will marry YOU till u die!! i mean it! it is really sad to say this but is for his own good. he really have a split personality, freaky! since sec1 he haven change damn fucking irritated till i hitting the keyboard while typing!!! soooooo frustating!!!! damn. smell smth smelly say its me, really, this person is damn rude lah.. no manners,

okok, say somemore make me wan to cry only, shitt you, GL!!!
i shall say no name, i respect you, so u better jolly well respect me back!

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Oh ya! i will open my happy banana blog soon soon.just without the emo feelings/attitude.:DDD i will post pictures tht makes me happy not emo. hahaha. presenting....

hahah, laikuan sooo funny!!! i am laughing now. LOL.okk, meow and yw sooo cute!! ken the cool. 10% of the pics posted hee!
blog soon, hey, guys, good luck for ur exams.:DDD
jyjy!!

ps: i want to take pics wif YL!!;DD

xoxo;shaz

emotional

2008-09-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

The feeling is just not rite? y am i feeling so irritated easily?omg! it is so frustating!! i really cant take it anymore. YUWEN! i noe u there for me but i am not there for myself, y am i changing into this i wan my old self just without someone. maybe in life u don really nid a bestfriend/friend/buddy to help u. u can just do it urself. but now i lost my self confidence and i am starting to feel the sticky feeling. i nid new frens. nice/POLITE new frens.but if u have a good/close fren which do not realise "it"s fault by giving zillions of hints, then i have nth to say but run away from those ppl. i rather live alone than to have those kind of frens. BULL* i don wan to say anything more, the more i say, the pain is soo unbearable.
blog when i am feeling stable. bye.